dear readers,
its been a while since my last updates... actually i dont know what to write because entah lah.. somehow i need to let go of my feelings coz i am just a human being and i cant keep it to myself. it is painful. I just need a true happiness that will make me glowing because i already feel bored and fed up with my surroundings. this is new for me because i never have this kind of feelings before. stay at home and doing nothing is better than meeting people and lepak. there's no excitement anymore. i dont feel the spark in my life. i have no enthusiasm in life like before. what is wrong with me? sometimes i tend to sit alone and cry without i realized. my life is miserable and empty. i dont have the spark and joy. i feel nothing. Ya Allah, i need my energy and power to cheer. i dont have anyone that can support me all day and be with me and give me strength to stand up and wake up. why i dont have that kind of person with me? who can bring me out and make me happy without hurting my feelings or anything? i need to be love. i miss all my friends that make me feels important and love me and never give up to cheer me up. i cant count on them anymore. mostly dah married and back in the hometown. so, guess...i am all alone to cheer my own self coz seriously, no one can help me... even the one that i love. coz i feel nothing accept disappointment and sadness and boredom........ i pun dah tak tahu nak cakap apa cz i neever feel this before.. bosan and no spark. if u feel the same... just follow your heart and brain because why wanna push your luck if it cant be save anymore kan??? hahaha... apa aku merepek ni????
ok readers,
xoxo
