~ iReEN RazaLi ~

dear readers,

i dunno where to start and what to say... whatever i've done is can't be undo..i know i've done wrong in my past ..i regretted it and hey who are you to judge me?? to snatch my happiness from me? i never steal anything in your life..i never disturb your life but why u wanna ruin mine??? sorry is not enough for me to accept it, if its not from your sincere heart... u have everything..just name it and u'll got it..but LOVE is not easy to achieved..i've my LOVE and he chose me...please don't ruin ours... eventhough i've had hurt him soo much in the past but it is between me and him and none is yours.. you are just a friend to him not more than that.. where were you when he needs someone?? where were you when he changed from good to someone else??? where were you all these while?? and when he raised up...you are here waiting for him and try to take him away from me?? what kind of person are you?? yeah..i admit you have your eyes on me all these while..but you just dunno what happened here..between me and him... all you know is, me being childish on posting curse on Facebook etc.. but did you ask me what really happened?? have you?? you just a bias person who claimed you are good person.. a smart person won't judge people from one side of stories but both... have you know how suffer i am before you came back??? yet you blame me for not letting you guys hang out for just both of you... which girl on Earth would rather let her BF went out for hang out with other girls and went for club???? you are being such a hypocrite person when you say NO.. you may a westernized person but this is Malaysia.. how western are you won't guarantee you to keep away the Malay's feelings... mingle with others and you know the beauty of your country.. but please don't ruin my relationship as he is my everything...  someday you will know what is LOVE when you found the perfect guy in life... just remember in mind... whatever you do Allah will return it back to you.. what goes around comes around... do good to people you'll get rewards in return and do bad to people you'll get the same as return or maybe worse... i never get interfere in your life but please for God sake don't disturb mine and please if you think the "sorry" word is soo hard to come out from your mouth sincerely..don't ask for it..because you may think that i am not as the same level as you are and seeking someone's apology is unnecessary then don't because you are not ready for it.."Maaf tidak mengenal erti darjat, kemaafan yang di pinta untuk hati yang ikhlas memintanya demi kemaafan yang tulus."-me-...when  you hurt someone's feelings badly and you know it may hurts her, you shouldn't do it or say sorry to her because Allah is the almighty and ADIL... you may experience the same soon.... as for now.. i can't forgive you yet..it is too bitter to swallow what you have done to me and yet you disrespect me.... if you want me to respect you please prepare yourself to respect others privacy. you have to learn to respect others before you want me to respect you as he is your friend yet he is my BF.... two different words and two different meaning...


till then readers....xoxo

dear readers,

its been a while since i wrote something about me, time after time i've been through a lot....happiness, sadness,relationship, friendship and all...ive gone through many obstacles to achieved whatever i have now...

okay, in the last MASUM (majlis sukan universiti malaysia) i played rowing and i became a rower and a coxswain in the same day in a different boat.. alhamdulillah, my 4+ got into semi while my 8+ got into final..eventhough we had a thin chance to win but we had fun to row with each other.. i love my rowing team!

now, ive moved on..i forget the pass and move on to a better life. i dont want to repeat the same mistake again cause it cost me a lot especially my own happiness. i love what i am now.. less temper and more patient but i still cant get rid of the pessimistic part of me pertaining my other half, im trying so hard but i just cant.. maybe its true that we cant trust anybody with all heart because it may hurt us soo much.. to endure the pain is not hard but to keep it, is hard..im just a human being and i cant escape from any of this but heyy,insyaAllah with du'a, family, friends im sure i cant face it with calm. insyaAllah Allah will always with His ummah and lead me to a better life without facing any hard obstacles because Allah wont challenge His ummah without their own capability...

me also has starting a new business with my friend ilana.. we are selling cookies and brownies for any event..insyaAllah we can cater all as long as people out there are giving us chance to spread our ideas in cookies n brownies.. place your order readers at sweetumms desire on facebook.. http://www.facebook.com/home.php#!/pages/Sweetumms-and-Desire/158571607547925....

tilll then readers..

xoxo..much love