~ iReEN RazaLi ~

hye readers,

as if i have loyal readers..hahaha.. ouh well just a quick stories.. this is my second month is Brunsfield and the office politics is heating up now, when all the superior are from the same field before they join this company, then what will happened?? listen to each other and scold others like a bullet before listen to any explanation... WELL, THAT is what happened to me now... every work that ive done, they never see it.. but when u make a mistake, they bamboo u...if one on one..i would say...toleration will be take place..but when 2 persons confronted 1 person..memang kena lah kannnn... cant fight for yourself pun...hahaha.. ouh well, have to buck up and prove that i can do it.... what ever happened take it as a lesson.

Sometimes in life, we need someone who can appreciate and recognize us.. someone who can understand and tolerate with us... when people do good..a simple thank you would be nice to hear or even a nice words conveyed... this is something needed when we are in a mess.. but disappointment is what we get right? we cant expect everything to be perfect or what we want. people wont change for us, coz that is just their attitude and bamboo cant be tune anymore...if they dont want to learn then let them be.. we must move on and be a better person cz at the end people will recognize and appreciate you.. patience is virtue.. if religious is crap then why shud u need faith right??? im proud to be Islam and have a religion for me to count on... my heart will not be astray far from the route... Allah loves me and all mankind. I love Allah and my religion.. i learn day by day, patience is virtue, be good to people and people will do good to u... do something and expect nothing.. manusia akan belajar sendiri cuma kita yang perlu bimbing either verbally and tacit... whatever it is I have to be strong and patience coz Allah will always be with me. Ameen :)

Hi readers,

How are you guys feeling?? is everything good?? well there is something that i can share in june because i got the job in Brunsfield. The very first company that i went after my final exams ended. my first interview was in february and it didn't go quite well. But hey, i am back with Brunsfield uniform, ID tag, access card etc. they called up for my second interview in May at Brunsfield Embassyview Condosuite jalan Ampang and this is my work place now. oh oh! i forgot, i started work on 4th June 2012. hehe, ssoooo im kinda new here in the company. I love my workplace and my colleagues are so nice. Even my boss!! hehe...Customer Service Officer, that is my position. I am not demanding on the position now because as a fresh graduate we cant be picky unless we have experience and of course very very top student of the university which i am not... heheheh.. but hey, as long as i have a job and can support me..i am more than happy.. not married no big commitment.. so yeah...what more to expect right??? if we are born in a silver spoon family then it is another stories.. Syukur for what i have and this is what i want.. to be a Brunsfielder.. hehehehe...ok that is for my work life.

we jump to  my love life pulak ok??

hahahaha.. sengal kan???? soooo, where should i start yeah?? i am still with mr. FA..we are 6 months now.. half a year man.. time flies without we realizing it. Actually, i feel like i am dreaming... 6 months and another 2 weeks, we'll reach the 7 months..i am happy..Alhamdulillah :).. Quarrel is normal..sweet and sour of life.. it spices our life... without it we can't see the happiness of it.. hehehe...Allah gave someone to you for a reason... a challenge to face, Allah wont give you such challenge that you cant handle..so far, Alhamdulillah..i am keeping up..day by day.. InsyaAllah.. my happiness is for me to achieve by my own effort and not others...people may shower u with love, joy, money etc but it me to choose and draw my life to what i wanna be. I love my man so much, i do.. i just want some change from him and everyone surroundings are waiting the same thing... heheh.. a  miracle will happen with His permission.

overall: my love life is good.. and sometimes ombak.. hehehe :) but i love my FA.

till then fellas :)

dear readers,

its been a while since my last updates... actually i dont know what to write because entah lah.. somehow i need to let go of my feelings coz i am just a human being and i cant keep it to myself. it is painful. I just need a true happiness that will make me glowing because i already feel bored and fed up with my surroundings. this is new for me because i never have this kind of feelings before. stay at home and doing nothing is better than meeting people and lepak. there's no excitement anymore. i dont feel the spark in my life. i have no enthusiasm in life like before. what is wrong with me? sometimes i tend to sit alone and cry without i realized. my life is miserable and empty. i dont have the spark and joy. i feel nothing. Ya Allah, i need my energy and power to cheer. i dont have anyone that can support me all day and be with me and give me strength to stand up and wake up. why i dont have that kind of person with me? who can bring me out and make me happy without hurting my feelings or anything? i need to be love. i miss all my friends that make me feels important and love me and never give up to cheer me up. i cant count on them anymore. mostly dah married and back in the hometown. so, guess...i am all alone to cheer my own self coz seriously, no one can help me... even the one that i love. coz i feel nothing accept disappointment and sadness and boredom........ i pun dah tak tahu nak cakap apa cz i neever feel this before.. bosan and no spark. if u feel the same... just follow your heart and brain because why wanna push your luck if it cant be save anymore kan??? hahaha... apa aku merepek ni????


ok readers,
xoxo

hey readers,

i had a very tense day today.. i supposed to be at charity walk for austism, but i woke up late due to tiredness.. drove to putrajaya with nearly 1 hour plus stuck in da jam and same goes bila balik KL... i was too tired and im really sorry to whom it may concern for not showing up today. i feel guilty for doing so...i am really sorry... its my responsible to wake up as early as i can. i should teach my self to be alert on the alarm. sigh.. i feel bad though. coz this event is an important event for them. why i am so careless about it. i shouldnt get angry or snapped right. i know it is my fault and i should be more alert next time since i am working now. i should be alert and focus on my life and my task. sigh... no matter what ireen..u should learn from your mistake.

hey readers,


well, where should i start?? in life, we will never escape from mistakes..me too...i did a lot of mistakes... ive regretted it and..... this is so random! when he showed up to my house's doorstep and im shocked! he really did it.... now i know that i shouldnt treated him like before... he is worth it..he has done so many things that i cant imagine it.. i should control my emotions and i love him.. i do..only me seen something in him... i should focusing on him now...reconcile...starting over! :)  idk what else to write but what i know is... my friend.. din has on his knee just now.. i was like omg!!! in public area... congrats bro! makan nasi minyakkk.. :)

hey readers,

im back with new stories... ouh well.. every blog that i wrote, everything has to do with sadness and love.. well this time is just the same s***... 03032012 was our 3rd months and yeah... i did planned to have dinner with him..instead i replied the BBM for 10 mins late and he pissed off...basically, the day started with bad day... i dont know what else to write... if u have been patience with me, me too.... im sorry i didnt care for you that much like your friend does... she's the only one that care for you so much and dying to help you.. u seem dont need gf at all.... your bff does anything that your gf supposed to do.. well, im sorry if you're reading this.. but i think u guys suit each other.. cz as a new girl in your life, i cant cope anymore..i did do everything but u didnt see it but everyone surround you did see it... you will never change for good.. its always you and you.. for other people in your life? nothing...it will always to be YOU... i guess... this thing wont working out after i beg and kneel down for you to forgive me.. accept me back is a big NO for you..so i guess im done here.. i dont need another person to make me cry over and over again.. i dont need this anymore.. my tears are more worth than your ego and pride... if you have yours..i have mine... ive throw it away when i accept you as my BF after ive rejected you for quite sometimes... ive seen your effort but it just last to get me as your gf and not for the rest of the relationship... this is not what i want.. same goes to you... ive done crying and do all eff up things back then..i just need a man to guide and love me.. seems like you are not the one that im looking for.. you always tell me that im STUPID without realizing that you are more stupid that i am coz u are dating a person that u called stupid... i am stupid for believing in you... that you will handle all things together and not to make me cry and will make me happy.. but u broke your promises..that is why i broke mine.. u made promises that u cant even remember...yeah, i screwed my chance that u gave but i think it is worth it.. thanks for pushed me away... its a hint that i shouldnt be back with you coz you are nothing differ than the previous ones... NOTHING NADA!!!! stop saying you are good cz you are not.. the moment you brought up my past..then i knew.. i will have a bleak future at the end... and yes...lucky me..i screwed up in early stage cz as far as i concern, u will never change and u will repeating your own mistakes without you realizing it and blame others to hide your mistakes.. so CIAO fella!


till then... xoxo

hey readers,

it's been a while after my last update....well there's nothing much to say about me lately.. cause im busy with work now... a very tiring work which make me wanna quit so much! ouh well.. at least i still have HIM with me... my sweet and sour sayangness... the cure and the poison.. ouh, this is sooo true! hahahha...everything that happened is for a reason and yeah so does him...He some how made my day alive with his mengadaness and jokes... i love him..yes i do! we've been trough a lot eventhough we're just in 2 months relationships and guess what.. next week is our 3rd months.. and im looking forward for the number to change and not stop at one particular number... FA i love u sayang... i do... :)