~ iReEN RazaLi ~

hey readers,

how are u guys doing? ouh sunday... im working on sunday..sucks right??? hahha...owh well, cant complaint much coz hey this is work..working life.. real life... well, i dont know why i open this blog and start typing shit in here. hahaha..well~ i think this is the only medium that can soothe me than being with human... i guess so.. reality is?? i like to write than talking to people because it is like talking to myself... i dont have people to judge me but its me to judge my own self... i have the emotional problem which i want to control..lately, i managed to control it slowly... i know my capability and i hate to be hurt again.... sakit bila kita berubah and people didnt see any changes about us.. well, i know Allah is with me and HE knows whatever i feel... being alone is not bad actually but lonely is not good either... i love my job and i love my life... i had enough of disappointment and pain... i know i am not good at anything that people good at.. sometimes i feel like a loser coz i cant make anyone happy... maybe i should go somewhere and be alone without anyone that i kenal ada kat my surroundings. maybe i should do that..it will make me realized and think what I really want in life... as for now, marriage is no longer my priority.. i dont want to get married and have a child.. this is random right..but i dont see any important to have a family if people think that i am not ready to do so... responsibilty will be on head and shoulder and i am not ready to take it yet...as ready as i was before but now, it seems shading away and people make me think that it is not the right time to do so... who knows if people or my family can change my mind and open my heart to accept marriage openly cz as for now.. enough of disappointment and cz i am not ready to be one now.. hahahhaaa...im just crapping my ars here.. i typed whatever i feel cz this is the only place that calm me down and listen to me.. cz as an introvert person i rather keep silent than talking to people cz i might hurt someone's feeling without me realizing it... sometimes i hate to be with human... i just dont know why..ok, aku dah start merapu lagi ni.. hahahah..sangat lawak kannn... well, once a month, the mood swing will happened... its just how we express it..day by day i move on and change slowly.. Alhamdulillah..

i should get back to work, bills to count and key in! :(

till then readers,

it's been a while since my last update....i just wanna share wif u guys that my 2010 is a blast and we are leaving it in 2 weeks time...ouh, i hate it!! many events are happening in 2010....i met the wonderful people...i went for a kewl holidays...there are so many memorable events....they are the sparks of my life... these are some of the pics that i can share with u guys about my activities with my superb people....

hye readers,

as if i have loyal readers..hahaha.. ouh well just a quick stories.. this is my second month is Brunsfield and the office politics is heating up now, when all the superior are from the same field before they join this company, then what will happened?? listen to each other and scold others like a bullet before listen to any explanation... WELL, THAT is what happened to me now... every work that ive done, they never see it.. but when u make a mistake, they bamboo u...if one on one..i would say...toleration will be take place..but when 2 persons confronted 1 person..memang kena lah kannnn... cant fight for yourself pun...hahaha.. ouh well, have to buck up and prove that i can do it.... what ever happened take it as a lesson.

Sometimes in life, we need someone who can appreciate and recognize us.. someone who can understand and tolerate with us... when people do good..a simple thank you would be nice to hear or even a nice words conveyed... this is something needed when we are in a mess.. but disappointment is what we get right? we cant expect everything to be perfect or what we want. people wont change for us, coz that is just their attitude and bamboo cant be tune anymore...if they dont want to learn then let them be.. we must move on and be a better person cz at the end people will recognize and appreciate you.. patience is virtue.. if religious is crap then why shud u need faith right??? im proud to be Islam and have a religion for me to count on... my heart will not be astray far from the route... Allah loves me and all mankind. I love Allah and my religion.. i learn day by day, patience is virtue, be good to people and people will do good to u... do something and expect nothing.. manusia akan belajar sendiri cuma kita yang perlu bimbing either verbally and tacit... whatever it is I have to be strong and patience coz Allah will always be with me. Ameen :)